Confession: I suck when it comes to commitment.
Yup, you heard that right. I've tried blogging before, on Tumblr, but after a while I got bored of it. I tend to get bored of things in general. I mean, I've even taken a hiatus here and there from reading to keep my brain power going. One of the greatest long-term commitments of my life, aside from certain friendships that have been going strong for well over a decade (I am talking to you Cheryl!), is this blog. Right here. Lili's Reflections. I'm completely awestruck that it has turned 3 years old today.
I don't really know what to say aside from THANK YOU. A huge, huge thank you to the over 3,000 cumulative followers I have found throughout these past three years. Thank you for each and every one of the 256,000+ page views I have gotten, and for every single comment or tweet thrown my way. Thank you for sticking with me and reading my posts and sharing your thoughts in response to my thoughts. Thanks for being awesome, really, and for giving me a platform to voice my thoughts and for giving me a space where said thoughts are actually valued.
I do not think I deserve any of you, but I love the fact that you guys allow me to occupy a little bit of your time anyway.
Through the past three years, a lot of has happened. I experienced what it was like to be at my lowest low numerous times, and each and every one of those times you came and picked me back up, helped piece me together, and told me it would be okay somehow someway. And, each and every time it was, but the simple fact of knowing you have a support network, no matter how big or small is marvelous.
The truth is that I may not be able to ever meet a lot of you. Most of you, really, but that doesn't make you any less important to my life. A lot of you are my friends, and I'm not talking Internet friends, but people that I value in general, that I can tell anything to, that I just simply want to have in my life. You've seen me through the crumble of past friendships that I valued--through the development of severe trust issues and perhaps even a little bit of anxiety--but realized may have been time to end, as well as personal attacks on myself, the struggles of adjusting to college, and the triumphs of college and interning, too. You've seen me literally at my highest highs and my lowest lows and yet all of you stick with me.
And it shocks me every time I open up my blog and I see I have a new follower or a new comment, or someone new as retweeted a post I put a lot of time and effort into. It gives me warm fuzzies inside!
This blog started off as a place for me to voice my opinions and share my thoughts about books. It has expanded into so much more. It has expanded into a place where I can talk about really personal things like my family and college life, a place where I can talk about my general interests no matter how nerdy they may be, a place to talk about my internships, my worries and aspirations for my future, my sheer excitement to know that I am working towards a dream career slowly but surely. But, most importantly, this serves as a place to allow me to connect to you...the person reading this right now...who most likely lives somewhere very far away, but still takes the time to read what I have to say even though I'm just a really tall deathly pale girl from Jersey with a lot of opinions and crazy curly hair...and a tendency to cuss a little too often when she's passionate about something.
Know that this girl appreciates every single one of you greatly. I'm unsure where this blog will be going in the next year as I will be spending 5 months out of the country come January, but for now, let's take it one step of a time and continue this awesome journey together.
But, most importantly, know that this frizzy haired freak really loves you, even if she doesn't really know how to show you that. She's working on it, because each and every one of you is ten times cooler than she can ever hope to be.